在16.7的时候吧,,老想着快到20吧,,使劲儿往老处打扮,,,,
希望别人看到我:说成年了吧,,,,
心里那个叫个美呀,,,那个乐呀,,,,,,
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现在,,,突然,,怎么就23.4了...?,,,
怎么感觉自己还在20岁停留,,
觉得自己没长大,,,,,也不想,,不要再长大,,
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天那,,,原来一到20岁,,,时间就过的飞快,,,
怎么会这样?!!.....WAY?,,,,!!
又多么希望时间就此打住,,,
停下吧,,停下吧,,,,,,
马上停下,,,,,现在就停下,,,,
虽然这是太奢侈的希望,,,
不可能达到的愿望,,,,
但还会这么想,,
时间,,,请你停下吧,,,,,,,,,
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昨天跟朋友聊天,,,,,,
聊到结婚这个话题,,,,,
结婚?,,!!
脑子有点儿懵,,,,,
天那,,,不敢想象,,,
还没概念,,,,怎么会聊到结婚捏?,,,,,
大概是这个朋友真的觉得我的年龄要到了吧,,
是,,,,,,,,,,,我应该要想到,,,,
但,,,,,,
能不能再过两年呢?,,,,,,
还没心理准备,,,,
虽然,,,,,,,现在好像是适婚年龄了,,,,
但,,,！还是想再有两年跟姐妹出去拼酒,,
可以撤夜不归的时间,,,,,
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还是睡不着,,,怎么回事儿今天,?,,,,
突然想自己已经长大的问题,,就想写写,,
算不是上什么感慨,,,,,,大家就当我发发牢骚吧,,,
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自己现在能做些什么呢?,,,,,
最现实的问题来了,,,,,,,
是向钱进军?,,,还是向做个没压力,,纯粹开心的人而进军?,,,,
是钱的话,,自己要怎么做?,,,,怎么样才能以最快的速度把自己的那些可怜的嫁妆搞定?,,,
是开心的话,,,怎么做,,才可以让自己开心,,,,,,,
同时让别人也有快乐德心情呢?,,,,,,,!
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经常会听到有钱人说::开心最重要,,,,,!如果不开心,,有那么多钱有什么用?!
嗯,,,,听起来很有道理,,也是真理,,,
而那些又没钱又不开心的人说::,情愿做个有钱而不开心的人,,,,!
人就是这么不可理喻,,,怎样好像都不称我们的心,,,,,
当然,,,,,如今这个社会,,我要听到有人说::我要开心,,不要钱,,,!
我想,,,不是我耳朵有问题,,就是他精神有问题,,,,,
不是我说的极端,,,而是现在社会的现状,,,,
到底要怎么做呢?,,,,,,
我想我就是那个钱没多少,,,又不怎么开心的人,,,,
我想大声喊,,用力喊:我要做个开心的有钱人,,!!!!!!!!!!
贪心？?!!!!!!!!
别说我,!!,,你自己想想你是怎么想的吧,,再给我下结论,,,,
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又想到这个人要怎么做才好呢?,,,!
以前,,,我对自己一遍又一遍的说,,
自己做自己的,,让他们说去吧,,,,,,,,,!
当时做什么,,,说什么,,都不会想到给自己留点余地,,
就算是个小小的后路,,,,都没有,,,,
甚至,,,就算交男朋友,,也是最多相处个三个来月,,
发现性格不合,,就理理智智的分分掉,,,,
不理他的感受,,甚至也会不太在意自己会不会伤心,,,,
幸庆的是,,,自己最多伤心个一两个星期,,,,,
之后照样轻轻松松,,,潇潇洒洒 ,,,,,
现在想想,,当初自己是不是残忍,,,,, ?,,
对别人,,或自己,,,,
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当时,,,,
之前,,之间,,或之后的发生的事,,,,
开心或不开心,,,,,,
自己理理也就这么过去了,,,,
认为自己的事自己可以整理好,,, 甚至可以主宰别人,,,,,,
可能这就是所谓的年少轻狂吧,,,,,,,,,,
也可以说少不知事吧,,,,,,,,,
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而现在,,,
应该算是自己懂了怎么认真爱一个人,,,认真交朋友,,,,
学会了迁就,,,学会了撒撒小娇,,,,,学会了看到男人累了,,
会有给他按按摩的行动..... 而不是冲动了,,,
更甚至发展到因为他的心情好坏,,而左右到自己的心情,,,
坏脾气好像通通不见了.,,,,,,,,
他不喜欢的,,,我就尽量不做,,,,
但我的男人啊,,,,,
一个人的习惯,,,或恶习,,,偶尔会不经意的犯,,,,有时候我会刻意的想犯下,,
所以,,,,,
男人,,,你也迁就下我吧,,,<比如跟姐们儿喝酒,,喝的舌头有点点直,但,,别担心,,我没醉,,>
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现在的我,,,,,,,,
会很在意别人,,朋友,,,对自己的看法,,,,想法,,,,,   
也学会了把自己心事讲给朋友听,,,,
喜欢上了别人听我讲心事的心情,,, ,,,,
同时也喜欢倾听她们的心事,,不管好或坏,,,,
更学会了安慰,,,开导别人,,,,,,
这算不算是学会分享了呢？,,,,,
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现在没了气焰,,,没了大脾气,,,,
算不算没了自我呢?,,,,,
是不是年龄的原因?,,,,,,,
但又感觉自己没长大,,,,,,,,,,,
一直在长大与没长大之间的感觉徘徊,,,,
一两年了,,还是搞不懂,,,,,
谁能给我正解 ?,,,,!   
矛盾,,,,,!!
是我的生活如此,,,还是你们亦如此呢？!!!!
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到现在都还没睡意,,,,
一来就一堆一堆的讲,,,,,
不要见怪,,,,,
这只是一个小女子我这几年不大不小的转变,,
突然开始迷茫了,,,,
接下来,,,要怎么继续下去,,,,

[ 本帖最后由 坟里的声音 于 2007-9-5 13:39 编辑 ]